MAXIN...

heeey!

im so glad to be home and to just get a chance to relax and do what i want to do for a change!! It's been really nice to get to run errands with my mom and shop and just have fun! I have been able to keep up my walking since ive been home, which is really good for me! lol, but it seems as though i am losing inches but that could TOTALLY be all mental, so i dont know for sure. But I think ive come to realization that scales are just another way to bring you down....lol, at least for the very beginning stages of losing weight, lol, i dont know, it just seems every time i step on it, i go with preconcieved ideas of what I will HOPEFULLY be, and 99% of the time I BOMB horribly, and then "give up" for the day, and eat whatever the HEK is in sight....hahaha, SERIOUSLY!! So, I think i am doing a WHOLE lot better now that i haven't been daunted by that stupid thing.....lol, how do you feel about that?? I think maybe it has to do somewhat with my OBSESSION i had with it a couple of years ago, i was on it everyday, and that's just not realistic... but i dont know, i think it's a lot harder in the beginning to keep going back to the scale, and I have heard that for the first month or so, stay off the scale, just because the first week of weight is all water weight, and then you expect more each week than what is healthy. But ANYWAYS!

lol, everything else is going great! i have a job shadowing experience tomorrow from 3-7pm in the ER of Mercy, so im pretty excited and SOOO NERVOUS!!! oh my word, i know i will be required to do more, which makes my even MORE nervous!! haha, but i know it will be such a great experience, so that should be fun...

TONIGHT, we are having our FLORIDA team meeting about our trip and money situations and everything, but i cannot believe it's getting SO close!! its FINALLY HERE!!! I REALLY REALLY REALLY WISH you were going, i KNOW you would have SO much fun, but i totally understand that you cant...that just really stinks....

I HOPE YOUR INTERVIEWS GO AMAZINGLY!!! I know you'll do GREAT!! I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU IN A COUPLE OF DAYS!!! LOVE YOU!!! ;)

sooooo done......

IM FINALLY DONE!! man, i thought this day would NEVER come! wow, i still cant believe it!?! i have yet to find out what exactly i got on my finals but they should be up by the end of the day..soooo we'll see i guess! I moved everything out of the apartment yesterday and didn't get a chance to walk or anything, but i did some hard cleaning as well, so i thought that might count for something??!

Today we're meeting up with my grandpa and his wife downtown, for lunch, so IM SO EXCITED! I haven't been downtown to shop or walk around ALL semester, so i think i DESERVE IT!! lol...

But im fixin to go walk 4 miles before we go, but it got kind of chilly last night so im hoping it wont be too cold this morning.

IM FINALLY A FLIPPING SENIORRRRRRRRRRR!!!! FOR SURE NOW.....hahaaha, oh man, it feels good, God has gotten me through it all and I am SO SO SO SO GRATEFUL!! no words can express how blessed i am to have a father like Him!!

Hope you're having an AMAZING day!! LOVE YOU GIRL!!

"I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phillippians 4:12-13